The Resolution

Let me start by explaining myself:

This started with a push to make a New Year's resolution. I vowed to work on the outside so "now it reflects, what's already in" me. But honestly, I wanted to work on my soul...and tell no one.

The first blog, "Getting older, I've decided, is a gift", was copied straight from an email. Not original, I know, but it said what I wanted to say about myself at the time.

Then I fell in love. I didn't mean too, but I did. My thoughts were all over and I just wanted to write and write. I thought this blogging would be the makeover my soul was craving. However, it was not meant to be. Instead, I wrote "Star Gazing"…the first sign my love was not wanted.

By mid-February, I knew both my soul and my heart would become causalities in this ridiculous game. This comprehension came in a flood of tears that begat "Even a storm can be beautiful". I realized I needed to distance myself, but again, fate stepped in by delivering an accident that I could not have foreseen.

As I returned to the life to which I had grown accustomed, things seem to move in a more positive direction. I decided my next blog would attempt to say what I was too afraid to say for myself. "A snowflake in the sea" was born. Unfortunately, it made no difference.

Now, the game has ended…completely…and I think my public writing spree has come to a close. So, in the coming days, I will leave with one last blog..."Honesty & Silence". I will then return to keeping my soul to myself.